Love All, Trust Few, Do Wrong To None.

I AM SO FUCKING MAD RIGHT NOW.

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Whew. I made it through that test although it really sucked.  But I got a 97% on the presentation/speech I crapped together last night with my partner at 9:45pm so that’s good.  I’m going to just keep my nose to the grindstone, my ass in gear, and finish the semester off strong.  Buttttttt I taught THREE tracks of combat today and Jen says my cueing is near perfect.  I just need to work on modulating my voice so I’m not monotone. I think I’m so worried about deafening them by yelling too loud and being too barbie that I am not being peppy enough.  I’m gonna work on it and I should be all set by august :)

OBAMA HAS WON!!  Thank GOD (figure of speech)!! I am so relieved I can’t even articulate it properly.  I was so worried about my client’s access to assistance/health care/food, my dad’s ability to have proper insurance, and my marriage rights.  It is a blessing to not have to worry about that for the time being.

Then we have Tammy Baldwin newly elected Wisconsin senator who is the first openly gay senator in U.S. history.  It’s a great first step to have her elected. 

All of that anxiety on top of having my patho exam on thursday, my care plan due tomorrow, and another prep assignment for sim, AND the fact that I’m coming down with something (most possibly bronchitis) makes for a lot of raw nerves.  I think it’s bed time for me.  Night tumblr

(oh and i went to body combat and had to bail half way through because I was about 2 seconds from a syncopal episode so I am not logging it).

Proving once again that campus police officers are hardly better than mall cops, they send out a bulletin about a Criminal Sexual Assault full of victim blaming and using “him/he/his” instead of “perpetrator”. It’s not bad enough that they cover up sexual assaults by funneling them through the women’s resource center and campus counseling to hush everything up, now they’re sending out bullshit press releases.

Um…. most assaults happen by someone the person knows.  While strangers are more likely to attack while someone is distracted, they should be more specific when disseminating information to the campus.  And even if most sexual assaults are committed by males that last sentence that says “make his move” completely perpetuates the stereotype that men rape women and makes it hard for victims of female perpetrators to have a voice.

The ONLY thing in the entire 6 paragraph bulletin they got right was telling people to never worry about being rude or seen as paranoid.  If your gut tells you to get out, get out.  They then ruined that good statement by adding one that insinuates that if you fail to protect yourself, it’s pretty much on you:

slowwwww clap for my university’s police. They are seriously a crack team.

So my week from HELL in terms of homework has passed.  In three days, I have studied for 2 exams, read 315 pages of dense textbook, put together a 10 minute research presentation on a syndrome I had never heard of, finished my case study (7 essay questions about immune system), and did my study guide (answering 9 essay questions).  This was one of the first times in my lifeI have been legitimately afraid I would no finish my work.  But I did.  Proof that if you have good time management skills and perfectionist nature, nothing is beyond your grasp.

And the bonus?  I have time to lift before combat today!  So excited.  I’m finally not to sick or too busy to get a lift in.  Life feels pretty good at the moment.

I’m a teeny tiny bit nervous about starting my job tomorrow.  Just a little nervous because I already know what I’m doing there from volunteering for 7 months and another staff member will be there with me while I’m learning the ropes.  But all the decisions are on me which is nerve wracking. If crazy shit goes down it’s up to me to find the solution and fix anything that might come up.  I don’t have a staff member to fall back on.

What I’m really nervous about is starting my first full semester of nursing on Monday.  I have to make sure I do really well and keep up with everything because Pathophysiology apparently sucks and I can’t screw anything up.  My bestie who is a semester ahead got a 4.0 her first semester last spring so I know it can be done.  I just have to keep my head down and keep trucking.  I’m ready to get back to my routine of eating right, working out every day (or multiple times per day) and working at the shelter.  What can I say, I’m a creature of habit :)

Whenever a job comes alone at the shelter they always offer it to volunteers first because we have our 80 hrs of training and know how things work/all the shelter procedures so it makes more sense for us to step in.  There was a Family Advocate position from 3-11pm open for Saturday and Sunday each week so I applied and I got it :D  I’m really excited.  It’s the perfect amount of work where I’ll some make good money (it’s $12 per hour), get good experience, and can pick up shifts or get a weekend off when I need it.  Because I know my course load is going to get intense now that I’m starting the nursing program and I don’t want my grades to slip. 

Anyway, with the move, the new job, nursing school starting up, and getting to see my other bff in a week for 3 days (and her whole family which is my family), everything is going pretty well.  So I would like to take this opportunity to be thankful for everything I have and to not lose sight of the fact that hard work eventually wins out with a little faith.

Me currently:

(or more like this because I’m dorky and awkward)

I am now in my new apartment and it is GORGEOUS!!  It’s pretty spacious and everything works and the maintenance guy seems really nice and attentive which is great.  I have my internet all hooked up.  I’ll take some pictures once I have everything all set up.  It’s a little bare right now since I’m still getting everything all settled but I’m so happy and excited!! I still have to clean my old apartment which is going to take HOURS.  That place is a shit-hole and our leasers are known for saying “the damages have exceeded your security deposit so you owe us _____ more dollars.”  They are not getting one morecentof my money.  Our security deposit was $680 and there is NO WAY we have accrued that much damage.  I had my dad re-caulk the bathtub and I’m going to scrub the crap out of the entire place and hope they don’t try to swindle us like they do everyone else.

Honestly though, nothing can affect the boisterous good mood I’m in right now :D

I was talking to a friend at work and she mentioned how someone she knows who had an apartment around here 10 or 15 years ago still had her apartment key and went to try out the lock for shits and giggles and it opened the door. I mean, they don’t put “do not duplicate” on the keys so people can make as many copies as they want and not return them once they move out.  So there could theoretically be 15+ years worth of former tenants who can get into my apartment.  I’m thinking that if all goes well I’ll be in my new apartment for 2.5 years so I’m going to ask the renter if they can have the locks changed if I’m willing to pay for it.  My dad said it would probably be $50-$100 which I think is worth it to know that randoms won’t be able to get in.  Especially since I’m living alone.  If I can’t  get the locks changed I am going to Lowes to get one that I can add in addition so it will at least be secure while I’m sleeping. I don’t know how apartment managers get away with this because I know they all do it. 

And I am literally praying that I will like that apartment and just stay there for the next 2.5 years (until I finish college) because I am sick to death of moving.  I was thinking about it and I had to move in and out of my UConn dorm, my current school dorm, the rooming house I stayed at last summer, where I am currently living and then into the new place. And every time I’ve had to scrub down the old place and then clean the new place.  It’s a lot of stress and annoyance and I am ready to not have to do that every year (or twice a year).  Assuming this next place is decent, I’m just gonna stay there.