Love All, Trust Few, Do Wrong To None.

I HATE RUNNING.  But I have a 7 miler july 4th so I gotta get my shit in gear.  I ran on the shore path of lake geneva wi which is hilly as shit.  I am exhausted.

So Thursday I had two last finals.  One was a HOT MESS that the entire class bombed because the teacher pulled crap out of her ass.  Seriously though, the class average is usually around an 85% and this one the average was a 70% (which is a D- for the nursing program…..).  But she isn’t curving it.  Whatever, over it.  I took a HESI exam (an online NCLEX style exam) for mental health and I ROCKED it.  We needed an 850 on it and I go a 1062.  Only 2 people out of 100 scored higher than me (booyah!!!)

We decided to go straight from the HESI to the bar(s) where I decided right there and then that it would be a cheat evening where I got drunk (hence ‘shitblr’).  At the first bar I had a glass of wine, a shot, and a “rum bucket” (a bucket with three shots of rum and fruit juice).  At the second bar I had 2 shots, a bucket of jungle juice stuff, and a vodka diet sprite.  I was thoroughly wasted from about 5pm-midnight and it was glorious.  I have been so stressed and burned out and miserable lately that it was nice to just have a fun night out.

We finished the night with chicken tacos at my friends apartment.  And I have absolutely not guilt about any of it.  Especially since I had to run to the bar the next morning to get my car so I shook off my hangover and got my vehicle (because I don’t drink and drive).

I’m so sad!!!! I am going to miss the two of them so much and I don’t want to be on my own.  Next semester I will be the instructor FOR REAL.  With my own class.  I am going to spend this summer getting in the best shape of my life.  It’s going to be exhausting and hard but if I pull this off, it will be awesome.  I am healthy but I want to feel like a badass.

TAPED MYSELF DOING BODYCOMBAT FOR THE LES MILLS ASSESSORS :) Thank god that’s over.  Now I gotta figure out how to send that sucker in.

I went to the gym this morning and practiced teaching an entire BodyCombat class with the mic to myself.  It was an experience.  I went all out and everything to an empty room.  here’s hoping I don’t fall on my face and fuck everything up tomorrow……

also, curses to my period for showing up and making my skin bad when it’s been amazing recently.  I’ve been eating way less meat, barely any dairy, and tons of veggies.  it’s made my skin great.  Until mother nature decided to go trundling through my life again >:(

Freaking out a little.  I was going to tape myself teaching an entire BodyCombat class for the Les Mills assessors (to get my full certification) on Satuday.  I had it all set up so I could practice once through on friday and be all set.  Now I’m doing it on friday and had to scramble to get everything together.  And I’m so worried.  If I screw up and need to retake sometime that will suck ass.  I just want to do well and be awesome.  Is that too much to ask.  Also, clinical was boring today.  

Not included are the 4 hours of cleaning I did at work on sunday.  I cleaned the whole shelter spotless.  I was sweating.

Classes canceled (start-building-an-ark flooding) means more time to practice and work out :)  I’ve been working a lot on mindfulness and focusing on what is happening right now.  It. is. hard.